I'm waiting. ^ these days I had lots of time to kill. sometimes I had to nap to avoid boring and hopeless. in most cases I had to wait energy from void recharges me, stands on solid ground. almost every night when I laid on bed, I was thankful. aging likely means more sleeping. the day before yesterday I dreamt worms infected my younger brother's anus. this morning I dreamt family business, likely with my son. its a lingering dream and let me woke up late. in canteen breakfast It first time serves bread, besides Chinese food including baked. first time in the year I saw a large and clean moon still in half sky facing me on way to canteen the southwestern. I enjoys breakfast as usual. last night likely 2nd snowing night in sequence, I saw so many blisses in it. my 2 meals dealers, both hijacked me to push higher subscription fee, by been mean to me. but I have nothing to satisfying them, as Holy affirmed. visiting my son more and more turns greatest event in my life here, but more and more the bitch woman, son's mom, attempted intervene it, espionage us and ruin merry moments.financial problem sometimes weighted me during shopping online, even each time I didn't hesitate to order goods to breeze our life in shines. I had to be prepared for prolonged payment time and interests accumulated. nothing warranted except hope of salvage does. God, dad, coming last monthly noble life experience approaching in December 2014, in which I will treat my son cinema, dining out, shopping, and gathering in my dorm. free me of anxious on budget. grant us happier Christmas Day with rich food. better equipping us upon coming 2015 which grounding our winning strategy and supply of capacity. thx dad, in this saint white morning.