dreamed of reconnecting my unseen son. ::in dawn dream I visited my once girlfriend in Nankai campus. her parents attempted blocking me lest my hurting their daughter again. I wrote novel or something on street and constantly contacted our classmates and her family and finally I saw our son with the girl. her husband, a Wang, accompanied us. I giggled my son lots of trifles and my son is so smart, esp. emotionally, and immersed in the happy gathering. his mom follows closely with her husband. its our first time meeting since graduate, for our son since his birth I was not informed, but my son never hesitates to acquaint me, his missing dad. the once girl, a Liu, now lives in Hongkong. likely terrified by my eyes inflammation pestered me life long since my mom infected me in a visit in my senior middle school, she overused medicine and damaged her lens. now she said almost blind. yesterday my son ported a night in my dorm. for not foreign movies available, we postponed twice the bimonthly event till last morning we watched "Khumba". my son so satisfied that he didn't want to shopping in Walmart as scheduled next anymore. I managed to hold him to the supermarket and bought him nuts as I long time planned. he constantly unease upon her mother's jealousies and fury of been forgot on way home. however, God saves us by let a neighbor girl student joined for tutoring in time, for that's the most motivational thing his mom buys anytime. I fed my son with salted yellow croakers, honey coated walnuts, pistachios and beef jerky we just bought when he played game on his pad. later his mom again pretendedly domineered, let son go to skate while my son loathed. so I suggested fetching my son roaming outside. I carried him some distance, then he walked. we gabbled about video game we just played a lot. returned to dorm, I did some cleaning and read news delayed. that's our happy new year holiday. God, dad, recently I got another bonus, ￥1200 from QRRS, my once and long time employer, but debt gap and living expense sometimes makes me more anxious. grant us safe in new year when I have instalment loan to pay on my own poor salary, near ￥1000 monthly. bring me sooner my Crowned Queen, Asoh Yukiko, from Japan, and my girl Lyu, girl Zhou, girl TW, into my life. allow me give birth my other children holy blesses. warrant promised land for 2 related nations beyond a narrow strait. in the affirmative 2015, I see fondness far beyond.