holy stream floats my palace. 神泉扶明宫。

a determined mind.
盲言之芒岩
眸子的星芒浮于薄霭
厌倦的兽眼阴雨里低低沉吼
under God's shine after i broke heart for a girl collegian, devoted to reclaim my vested kingdom of China from my ancestor with glory.

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2/2/2015 dreamt of deal among Chinese minorities.:: yesterday was brilliant all daytime. I recovered from sudden ailment and visited my son, woz, Hope of China, God of Universe, on time and completed what I usually schedule to find fun, a shooting video game, Enemy Front, ie a checkpoint saved. China surveillance desperately blocked my son's android pad to update game content from google play market, but 2 ways I envisioned to bypass GFW filter working, in minutes I saw homepage of google play market, even downloading launched. but targeted intervention so resolvedly that no stable connection lasted minutes. I finally gave up, as God allows. I had lots of happy time in the Sunday among activities with my son, including gaming, showering, lunching, walking outside, eating fruits weekly subscribed, and pine nuts recent bought online. I apparently easier to lose interests and fall into doze, sign of aging. returned to QRRS Dorm, I enjoy neat workspace after cleansed 2 os. this dawn I dreamt making deal with 4 or 5 minorities in China, say, Yi, Miao, Uygur,Bai nationality. I bought land from those rampant, selling it to those too jammed by space, offer plenty foods to starving and balances them all in love. I saw history in dissent allies in Christian unity, in God's shine. its a lengthy dream, with real different people and my trusted ones. God, where and when PRC sinking to? the day by day harsher online surveillance and self-destruction by root out its rich medium and benevolence of western education since fall of bureaucracy with Ming Dynasty led to where to die? is war them, the tyrant last resort and fool's errand? dad, God, bring me sooner my Royal China, cover my family with due nutrition of freedom of idea. bring world democracy sooner into death locked PRC, the fatherless bastard of Russian Red Oct. Dad, God, pl allow us google service, and all those innovative cyberspace like facebook, twitter, etc.

30/1/2015 dreamt of printing. :: yesterday I decided washout 2 os against accumulated online threats. it done perfect excepted my chrome os hardly stably connected google servers to update my synced profile. might the task too draining, after dinner I felt dizzy, vomiting. I tried to drink some beer to fix the feeling, and watched my favorite Japanese TV series in the night. but still I felt cold and sick. waited bed time, I had no problem to sleep. dreamt with my Nankai alumnus, Chenxj. I printed many copies of my works or plan for my darling, or my son, each only containing a section of the full plan or blog. the sleep deep and curing. after got up I shit diarrheal. managed ate some porridge, my chromebook finally login my account, even problematically. its a brilliant bright morning. God, dad, when the sinking PRC stop hating smart people and ideas? when freedom of society and respect of individuals maintained as norm? dad, God, I now equipped with vpn and surfing no bordering, but I was left likes on a sinking tip island. God, save sinful PRC from its tyrant party, bring sooner world democracy into the old scarred land.

23/1/2015 our first google play purchase. :: in dawn dreamt I was assigned to patrol along the signified place, like the great wall or Tian'anmen Square, with someone dear, say my son. there r crowd gathering on site, including my once department director who broke my normal civil career perspective in QRRS cable TV branch. my haunting concern is to automate the patrol and relief me from the route. in last dusk my youngest elder sister called to ensure I am in sound state. her husband talked to me in the mid and turned out hostile to my lucky life. he urged me to fish from national medicare system to save money for improve my life shortly while I let him shut up his foolish and selfish propagation. new credit card issuer, ICBC, also contacted my previous department director for credit auditory. I hope it smooth and gain the card sooner. but that didn't stop us from enjoy new freedom new vpn brings out. when my son asked for pay in his pad games from google play market, even I had explained him we'd better wait till new ICBC credit card to power our pay method, I tried the 3rd way to pay, gift card, as quick response. there r lots of vendors on taobao.com, Chinese largest e-commercial site emerging in 15 years from nothing, I easily bought $20 at price of ¥109 to charge my son's google account. I intended to surprise my son, so I persistently persuade him to use it to buy. his evil mom took him away twice in the good day, noon for table tennis, dusk to swim, from our online collaboration. the main problem is paying require password verifying, while my son didn't keep a copy of it. I never want to risk stolen and sent him password in cyberspace, given China surveillance so harsh. so lots of time cost teaching my son decrypt password I sent him in im. China espionage broke his Internet many time, let lagging loading page. so many failures frustrated me and I started to scorn and curse my son who seems so naive against blocking. my son finally gave up. that's near 9pm when usually he go to bed. after cleaning myself, I booted up and buzzed my son, yelling him to buy online before sleeping. and he didn't hurt much from my scorns. after I tried buy a bible educational game in his account, he on other side of the Internet did his own purchase independently, his first google payment. all to call the day a nice day. just after affirmed the success, my Internet within the dorm LAN was forced offline. there must be someone losing in the mid or on the wall. God, dad, bring me sooner my Royal China, my girls to new barn where lovely memories echoes. grant us a new credit card and smooth google service at hand, like all other merits shares American people. do please let us learn and grow, in ur shines, peaces and plenty. 17/1/2015 heated waiting for new credit card.:: powered by powerful vpn,ssledge, I now enjoy most web like in democracy world. God answers my pray by allowing me glimpse freedom alike in dreamland, United State. to finish equipping my son his online payment,esp google play store access, I decided applying ICBC for a credit card. the bank previously sms me I entitled to apply its credit card basing my sound financial credit, but I didn't reply for I reckoned 2 credit cards enough for me. visiting the bank where most clients on site are elders, the sms reportedly no record on server and I had to apply it normally, requires salary spreadsheet, workplace id card, etc. returned to dorm I felt chill in the bank business and later heat and cold interwoven made my nose stuffed. this dawn I anxious in dream about my breath while nose stuffed. then worried my lunch cook's dry throat, which led him constantly cough, infects me. then dream met with a once colleague, Zhanhe, in Chinese means war river, of QRRS, my once and long time employer, talking about security fault in enterprise computer network, for the guy works in its networks department. we swam a dam and arrived the HQ aside the stream, saw many of his busy workmates. then my passed mother appeared in my dream, as well as my eldest brother now in hometown village. they likely help me building a 3 phrases security installment for my son's play. my son in dream accompanied me and waited his toy I prepared him. last night my sinful 2nd elder sister buzzed in, told me my kid brother intended to loan me ¥5000 in lunar year end and she will join 1000. God, dad, grant me 3rd credit card and usage of appstore at my son's disposal. empower me break debt barrier in new year 2015. dad, my life improved so much here everyone witnesses. envision me new landscape for even better. thx dad.

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