holy stream floats my palace. 神泉扶明宫。
a determined mind.
under God's shine after i broke heart for a girl collegian, devoted to reclaim my vested kingdom of China from my ancestor with glory.
this week I restored my 3 dynamic sites powered by web apps. cleaning data costs some time, but godaddy’s cpanel quite helpful and setup quickly. yesterday I demonstrated my work to my son, woz, Hope of China, and confessed how I love my own hut of communication, my own publication like the website. this dawn I dreamt visiting my passed eldest sister’s house. my eldest sister committed suicide in her prime time, likely after long time disharmonious with her husband. I love my sister very much and my old family in debt of my sister for her marriage with a worker which life much easier than our in early hardest time of PRC. I dreamt my siblings gathered to visit my eldest sister’s house. on a fork road stop we met our brother-in-law, a widow now, trying repair his tricycle. his son, my cousin grew up his teenage in my old family after his mother’s passed by and under my parents’ custody with his younger sister, offer a silent helping hand in the house and delayed there while most of my siblings leaving. I tried to blog after got up but memory scattered and I napped again. then dreamt I was forbidden to communicate with the brother-in-law, but get a “matb” certificate of permission to create access with the past. I also dreamt I on my website considering published a worker’s poems. he is an employee of my once workplace, QRRS. his poems mostly old styled and mirrors PRC old custom. I likely then attending a site owners’ seminar. last week PSBC bank urged me to return overdrawal of my credit card. I contacted my senior middle school alumni and one of them offered me ¥1000. even I badly need ¥5000 to facilitate fluit of my credit, I can’t blame my alumnus’ poor kindness. I hope step by step break barrier of locked credit. God dad, my web site, esp powered by database and web apps, is my contribution to the world voices. pl help me maintain it and let it booms. grant me renew my hosting plan graceful and reasonably secured duration. grant us the cosy workspace we enjoy now. bring me sooner my Royal China, my girls and my offspring in time. dad, let my dearest eldest sister stays in my heart and forever in love. let the coming history witnesses the blessing her concerned.