lunar dragon boat day holiday slides in before my notice. this morning missed canteen breakfast among dreams and naps in early wakeup, or the canteen already closed service in holiday likely its usual. in boring morning I felt all world paled out in others' celebration, left me alone and lonely. I felt cold and napped in quilt for warmth. near noon I ate noodles in nearby restaurant after found canteen out of service. the sunshine is faultlessly bright, but it a bit too stinging for sunbath. I missed my son very much but decided follow Christian calendar to reunite him in weekends, ie day after yesterday, and for the sake of my poor wallet. which left no more than ￥30. this week my credit card issuer bank buzzed several times, and I promised CCB whose clearance clerk woman quite abled that I will pay it first with my salary. bankcomm affirmed my unable to pay more than 3 times, likely will adopt next phrase operation to secure its property. PSBC still helping me with its credit to buy what I need, like SSD harddisk and other item online, but its clearance clerk man too coarse to handle, just cursed me times and times. in the afternoon I napped again to avoid boringness, I dreamt my shared workplace visited by 2 pals of my colleague, likely one of my Nankai Univ alumnus now lives in Canada, or the youngest son of my uncle, which both tall and bigger build. they invited me to name their company and trying using office computer to find solution. I was a bit afraid them using my computer, so I tried in mess and harsh to logout my computer but can't find keyboard in piles of paperworks prompt. then I suddenly shout out my answer, Tian'an in Chinese, totally safe or heavenly safe. my alumnus approached me to cheer up before I woke up. its sunny now outside, with classic music rather than podcast recently I listened more on google play I felt right mood under bliss. God, dad, my income shortage now weights me down. I saw in decades my earnings from my blog and websites hardly supports our lifestyle we enjoyed so far with my son since credit card power. dad, God, only ur Mightiness covers our incomplete of life support. grant us freedom of financial independence. bring me sooner my Royal China to sustain the brilliant way ahead. boast my web presence and traffic that means. empower my cyberspace startup to success. dad, I'm so complacent with my web assets. secure them and let it deserves our effort to bring it out.

Photo Description: among hard economy in sinking PRC and doubts of my relatives, we struck to live noble with our favorite lifestyle since 2014 when the proud dad, benzrad adopted credit card. with my youngest elder sister's ￥500 loan, we dined out with dicos in Qiqihar railway station near woz's house. here woz in his game after dinner.