pray for save.^ this month should be tough finance for we hardly restrained our living expense. what's worse, son warrenzh 朱楚甲, Hope of China, made purchase in his pad games, totally ￥270. we ate Chinese lunch on each Sunday instead of Dico's we likes so much, save half of the meal, near ￥30. deficit sometimes let me down and slept a lot to avoid anxiousness. last Wednesday is a brilliant sunny day, I bought dry beef for son again to celebrate it. in the night when I reviewed holy revelation in my life, I'm affirmed so much. life of mine, not a burden but vision of indulge, treasure to shines. this dawn Dream again worms eat my flesh under skin, this time on my heel. it itches, when I inspected then found a cone hallow under my heel created by the parasites. then dream with my son, and my kid brother on a schedule for travel of train. I hold my son on the move in meetings in town while brother in hotel waiting for tickets to launch together. its urgent to be on time on every stage, while all means we have in uncertain. its like a nightmare of distraction during hurry up otherwise out of we afford. in late dream I tried to blog the dream till bright late spring morning. breakfast is enjoyable and breeze accords my query of witness. God, grant me independence of living with life style we enjoy so far. rid me want and debt, and vulnerable under superficial life, to pursue truth and beauty of spirit. God, dad, coming month will commence summer, funnest season for my son and myself in every year. cover our joy time expense and focus on moments we reunite.bring me sooner my Royal China to forward history in Asia. bring me my girls, my Queens in my family, like running river of forever life.