dreamed of hell academy again.^ last night first time in summer 2013 slept without covering quilt. dreamed in dawn in campus near term end exam. while all pals busy with preparing exam, I  updated my son's and mine 2 dell notebooks, IE. video drivers, network interface card drivers. the mentor warned me but seemingly tentatively allow my loosing upon the tightened reign, in bad will or good one's. I hated universal reign, like exams, so determined that I was separated by it from my pals. the nightmare must be put down. yesterday one of my alumni, of both senior middle school and university, buzzed me and we talked about our shared history and current situation. I first time reviewed my falling into asylum in my broken heart love in NanKai Univ back to 1999. God, I felt more secured with bond with my pals. my son sensed my high mood and refused to accompany me but played "monopoly" with his mom, who soon brought him visit dusk market outside and let me empty hand in return. in dorm garden I rambled more time than usual, echoes of my utterance in my heart allow me watch God's mercy in my fate, inc moments I distressed. God, dad, bring me sooner my Royal China to home my children. uphold my son's linkage with his saint mother in Japan. God, Asoh Yukiko, dress me to break curses upon my love and my girls. thx God, in this brilliant sunshine.